Our standards are those which will economically serve us better. By economically i mean to exchange that which we have by that which we prefer. Yet we as humans are still unsatisfied. What will it take for us to realize the answer: Christ's passion is beautifully satifying.
I find myself drifting away from what i believe God has for me because i believe in my mind that there is something more, something better, but what is better than perfection? My questions are meager, yet Gods answers are wise. The theme of this blog, the world is in constant motion, signifies that without God, we are lost, we have no direction, we are always moving in chaotic ways without the light of Christ shining from within us.
I want to share a piece of my journey. It was a journal entry a few months ago which talks about, sort of in allegorical form how we are on this journey, with God as my compass, and consciousness is selfishness, human nature, reason. We often lean towards reason because that is what we know, yet God wants us to hold Him near and trust Him, yet we ignore Him out of pride. I encourage anyone reading to always listen, always trust, always take faith in His calling.

Since then I have felt just very torn I guess. I feel like on the inside there is a gray ocean storming, I am tossing and turning, waves are crashing, and my soul is shipwrecked. This boat of mine is cracked and shattered, rain is falling, I am freezing and drenched, there is a light at the top of this turbulent boat. This light is consciousness. Consciousness in mind and in action. Up i go, on a high wave, the light is straight guiding my way, but alsmost immediately as I reach that high I plummet straight to the dark depth, with my light head first, I sink deep to a low wave. This is a solitary journey. A dark, endless voyage. Destination unknown, purpose undecided. The view I see in all direction, my compass decides but all I see is my torn and weary face in the reflection of its glass. The big things of life are forgotten and survival seems primary. The light is fading, is fading...